In Part 1, I talked about the disconnect between my head and my heart and the wound that never quite healed. I used to wrestle with sharing what comes next, but I’ve realized that I can’t be who God has called me to be without acknowledging who I was.
For seven and a half years, I lived in the dark.
I was a Christian in name, but a wanderer in my heart. I lived a double life of infidelity while my husband Kris struggled with a return to pornography. We were both sinning, both hurting, and both hiding.
***Note: Please listen with care. In this session, I am getting very real and very vulnerable about infidelity, pornography, and the brutal reality of a marriage in shambles. If you aren’t in a place to hold this story today, please wait until you feel grounded.
Today’s Real Talk is about:
Why we choose to stay in the shadows of sin because it feels safe.
The lie that some sins are worse than others, and how that keeps us in bondage to shame.
The night the light broke through, and why my first response wasn’t repentance, but a callous “Well, there it is.”
We are all sinners. We all have muddy ruts in our brains and wounds in our souls.
If you are currently hiding in the dark, I want you to know that I know the light is terrifying, but it’s the only place where you can finally breathe. You don’t have to be perfect to be loved. You just have to be real.
Jamie
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